Marine Layers of the Morning Mind

The shrubs looked back, darkened eyes

A path unseen, squinted, in full moon light

Heavy lids rolled over rocky foot and toes,

Steps in path of a journey to the soul

I n’er detest, the marine layers of the morning mind

Up & up with no prompted noise save for the dove,

Cyclical dispersal of angled rays

Rotational edge of the dawned hour,

In the wind, the global goals blow - checked, off

Again, the clouds tasked to carry 

as are we -

The water of the wind, wiser we wonderfully stumble

Wet and dry - another try and cry -

How will the Earth receive our falling and rising action

Today…

How heavy, this hindered weight

of a world so detached,

Through glass, my light moves 

as points of liberation a-mixed waves of despair

both at once - a quantum coin - flips,

How spend I, this currency of unknown value

And who flips the state of being,

A desire of certain chaos, platonic and expansive 

6.30.19

somewhere ville, anytown

another document

another day

the hours are in the sauce

lost to the cleaning agents

of upkeep

the lawn is cut

the faucet flows

more clippings spin into nonexistence

how manicured our nails are despite the unkempt cuticles

adjustments to sedentary ponderings made

as cats, sans hats, show off the sunny shade of cushions 

(...life…buffers…)

[start]

a displacement of shoes finds new imbalance,

as a pair of hands meets feet

to wash and garnish with accolades 

how thankful they feel for the fruited labor of corns, smashed into the 

arch

of the halls downtown - somewhere ville -

where, the decisions are made

and wages set

seen through drone eyes and not those of a neighbor,

the task of keeping up the grade, the standard of 

malthusian practice

through charts and farts a number grows

somewhere ville, anytown 

another person sees strife and dirt, feet hurt, nails caked in grime yet cuticles are perfect this time,

washed cannot be the clothes on those backs

stain of vice and iniquity as the tide of greed smells like products of privilege 

more boots stomp into indemnity as the socially just gumshoe

tries and fails, to hire the protestor

[as spirit finds its market value in high demand]

as a dichotomy - the peaceful warrior, an agent of used stock photos, to hit the streets with signs of worn out feet, souls and shoe,

more fiber needed, a rubber bullet stomach, 

as optical threads spend all their lives

analyzing the facial and racial recognitions, much like the sequencing of a fruit genome

more apes become labeled, columned, and modified, zip-locked into new age seed bags,

planted in rows of subservience, 

propaganda thrives on docile laughter at cat videos, farther we are from knowing how plants move,

as spirit drowns on extreme spirals down the genetically modified bean stalk of detachment

-

where did this food come from?

how long have I been on this application?

did I see the sun today?

-

until a new story of words, a new string-bean of theory, sets letters into novel motion, 

a mass of mass moves

the matter, all of it, is what

decries everyone, unhappy with the broken promises of technology

and suddenly the windows burst into rainbow berries

a smoothie of outside foams down our eye throats and we supercharge

a mix of electromagnetic nutrients of nothingness

into new something-ness

a new, impossibly tiny bee larvae 

finds the light and takes in the smell of ovum

now on a mission of connected interdependency 

springing forth in the seasonal cycle

seen by some

invisible to most

and all at ones 

perfect

because

alive we are

must learn we

how to live and die

but more so, how to be

Medicare For Trees

if a tree branch falls, will anyone pick it up?

it doesn’t have to be in the woods, it need not be an isolated or pointedly experimental thought,

it happens on your morning dog walk, in the green courtyard, the commons for human folk, hosting

rows of arboreal cousins,

intermixed to these root systems the canine urine truly becomes, giving the veins of the tall carbon repositories a drink from the liquid well that is our living room food bowls,

and on these walks in the new sunning hours of the dewey dawn, 

our rigid and strong cousins shade us from the pre-coffee UV onslaught, and if we see one of their arms laid down - a symbol of police abolition - (how can we reallocate our budgets?)

those twigs and leaves now sit uninvited on sidewalks, 

as grassy barefoot invitations to see them closer, dropped many feet too low and out of place,
calling to their high hanging partners for a lift, any form of help up and away from the height where pollen and bird droppings settle, and back towards the squirrel’s home, the cockatoo nest, the cathedral where cosmic collections of sun-rays turned engender-er of energy and marvelous processes’ keeps the tree alive, 

this fallen branch is on your way, its on your dogs path and creates, out of a seemingly uncontrollable and fixed universe, more Time, measurable in seconds, for the pooch to sniff the new pallet of smells, and for you to tug away because you are already late, even though this Time was just created, how…

will any one human see this branch as more than a dog’s interest?

will someone pick up this branch out of the goodness of the commons’ heart?

Or only when contracted and paid will a ‘worker’ take the steps away from a dazed, half awake stumble, to remove the branch and place it somewhere ELSE, wherever that may be?

for a tree branch fallen does not serve a purpose, it’s out of place,

its role to the host terminated by who knows what strong force, certainly not a body building woodpecker, 

and as such, the horizontal fate of this bifurcating bastion of bio-spherical beauty is made tragic with each passerby, those bipedal steps proceeding in willful detachment — 

either because their gaze is singular to a ‘private experience in public’ aka social media,

or raindrops of responsibility, participation, and expenditure are not forecast on that day, or any — 

lest some Other impetus demands action, preservation of your inner answerable reserves supposes a tantamount value system in negation of nature, a detachment from the wooded cousins we breath through, because they are broken,

they come with a pre-existing condition to be used by us, turned into pulp, moved only because commerce and capitalism constitutes it to be so, 

and to mend these arms, to place in tourniquet and bandage when snapped, these branches—not far removed from comparisons to our own gesticulating limbs— can be shirked as the task of another, a physician poised in paid position to proposition a healing condition, as insurance dictates,

but who is the nature doctor, the Other who prescribes a mending schedule when the tree needs it the most, who schedules this new patient, who does an intake form requiring a signature of sap?

are there any copays and deductibles for the knobs on the twigs?

do the determinants of deciduous developments see themselves as healthcare workers, or are they just 9-5 paid desk drivers of HOA and management protocols, just doing their job, as greenbacks dictate the delineation of arboreal insurance plans?

if any unpaid resident removes the branch through altruistic or selfish means, induction into the Doctors Without Border Tree Edition is imminent, 

and in this “tree-diatric” union, one hopes those kind souls could retain their ability to practice, without Big Pine or Big Oak influencing the medicine they freely give, as

Medicare For Trees

Consistent Cannabis

these cosmic cataracts could change with consistent cannabis 

relatively, if regulated, reversing a retroactive and remunerative region of recognition 

6.14.19

A Neanderthal’s Axe

taken and made, a neanderthal’s axe

buzzed shift, worthwhile doors

pressed fingertips on heavier center for gravity

agreed with a verbal verbatim

arch massage needed

lengthy armpit antinodes suggest the sun

a fine print audit for the prince 

golden topography instead

a readout forwarded to cached goals

palindrome for all the zeros as ones 

sacred dercas 

whoopsie eispoohw

skadush hsudks 

6.12.19

Process

Love Like a Sunset

Citylights Forever

Wrong Floor

Summertime

Belle

A Dreamy Day of Dreaming of You

The Wanderer

Song from Friday Afternoon

You Would Have to Lose Your Mind

Journey Into The Unknown

For the Time Being

I’m Aware

We’ve Come So Far

Aspen Forest

Shooting Star

Even After All

Somebody Made For Me

Pyramid Love

Pin It Down

A Sky for Shoeing Horses Under

I Miss You

Love Grows

symbol

Meet Me in the City

Light Leaves

Soul Alphabet

Drive

Do U Want Me

Regret

Touched Something’s Hollow 

Siberian Breaks

New Friends 

Lakeside

Nothin’ In the World Can Stop Me Worryin’ Bout That Girl

Faberge Falls For Shuggie

Careful You

The Couple’s First Kiss

Rubber Traits

Heimdalsgate Like A Promethean Curse

Final Credits

Nystagmus, the answer

Through me, sunlit beam of eyes

roll, a wave of fluctuation, on repeat

Nystagmus, the answer

Double pane frames collects dust

The visions of stone and cobble seen in sepia sights

As, by landscape provisions, grandeur lives by the mortar hand of mortals

Fused minerals by energetic grips secures the power of comfort

Alignment through meaningful creations, fabricated states of stars

moonlit beams of I, declare, through me, a return to source

A smile changes everything

States of mind intertwined 

Headphones twist, which ear to 

Stick it in

Turn it up

Tune it in

How does the progression of time feel

Today?

Malleable, erratic

A smile changes everything

Who judges my actions by way of 

Stomach churns?

What force causes butterflies 

To flap?

Whisk the eggs of light, color, and shine

To bounce

Off feathered stratosphere, beat and

Pulse

Breath,

Clean the lens, move the skin, again

Inner growth requires outer change

Nature Walk Number 2

the sun a cascading waterfall of light,

through the brook

the naked willow goes

babbling on about clothing,

abandoned by her roots - 

who didn’t need these shoes - 

and wondering who will walk 

in another direction,

as a ray of luster,

once tied to another sole 

will they forget their size,

she forever wonders

Comparative Nowness

In the late 1800s photography was incredibly novel and factual. As the new category of art and journalism took form, every picture printed and published was believed. It became the record of verity, and a ledger fo detail the levels of which were undisputed. To the masses, if it was photographed, then it was so. 

Fast forward 220 years, and comparatively if somebody in 2020 saw a photograph, the likelihood of a hint of skepticism regarding the factual reliability of the image and the integrity of the photograph is increasingly possible. To this degree, the believability of our world is becoming increasingly less reliable. Most people nowadays, those who are text savvy enough to witness and partake in online meme culture and new media information outlets, are certainly aware that what is being presented on the World Wide Web could in fact be fake, and that a personal discernment need be exercised to vet content properly. Perhaps traditional news print and anecdotal information of the 1800’s was viewed with the same skepticism. Then along came photographs; then along came the climate crisis.

Now, let us compare the photographs of the 1800’s to the existence of animals and species in the 2000’s. Each preoccupation exists in that century as fact: valid is the image of Yosemite National Park to newspaper readers as the reports about endangered blue whales are to modern travelers. (Thank you Ken Burn and David Attenborough, respectively.) To the people of the time, an encounter with a story of a whale or a picture of a pristine valley was a memory of the present moment. In other words, those readers and the sea tourists both lived their lives according to the best practices they knew, and they lived in the moment. I wonder, who in the 1870’s and who in 2019 thought about their natural experiences as being the last of their kind? Is self reflexivity a condition of increasing modernity? Is questioning the present moment a human trait?

When something old is presented to us, we believe it to be real. Will someone in 2240 believe that whales existed because of a photograph, and not because of a story in which someone encountered the dying, giant swimmers? Could I be the last generation that believes that nature exists the way that it does? 

I may be a part of the last generation to experience whales and nature as things that exist in real life, and not in photographs. I am in the year 2020 and I am 29 years old. As it stands, there is a literal mass extinction happening on a scale that is almost inconceivable, all around me, and for better or worse mostly out of sight. For what I can see and actually appreciate, the species in front of my eyes in the world that I am experiencing through my own life, that is like the photograph of the 1800’s. The same truth - as a felt sense of reality which came from a now faded picture of California - might be the same fading truth of the existence of species like blue whales, squirrels, yellow bellied warblers, beetles or any living thing in contemporary time. 

It feels inconceivable for someone in the year 1870 to question the validity of a photograph. It also feels, to say the least, odd to consider someone in 2021 questioning the validity that birds still fly in the sky. Both these concepts are accepted truths, until adjusted to the contrary. The progression might come from the passage of time, the social media sphere focusing attention on a future crisis, or the ambivalence for the natural world in general. Is that the trend, then, for novelty in nature to diminish once it is exposed? Once something is reproduced ad nauseam, a healthy skepticism perhaps deters us from believing the present moment, and then in turn just the facsimile. We then shift our faith to the old, or the new, telling us how it was/what it will be. 

Pondering the privilege that I could chose to travel great distances to witness species that still exist on earth, tomorrow, just so I can say that I saw them may sound like unacknowledged entitlement. Yet I know traveling is harmful to the environment on some level, and I for now chose a photograph of yesteryear or a story of yesterday instead. This in the hopes of enriching an attitude of gratitude for the comfort that I have and live. I place my trust in the pictures, in the stories and in the present moment. As far as I know, the natural world exists. Solipsism aside, I can see retroactively how engaging nature - like the increased tourism of Yosemite and the mismanaged arboreal surroundings because of non-native caretakers running the show (see the tree burning practices of the indigenous Californian tribes) - can deteriorate it beyond recognition. Perhaps it is time to live in the pictures, the tall tales of tall trees, and let those thing exist without misguided human interference.